feelings()

this face i have of you in mind

remindes me you are one of the kind

these months with you gave me the light

that i was searching that awkward night

i drink a lot and think too much

started at November,and now it's March

i lied telling i didn't know

i wanted what you were giving 

 that's the only truth

But when you came,i was so lost

i tried to give, with heart still frost

I miss your eyes,our walks, your hugs

i screwed it all up, 

tears have now filled up my lungs

my mind conquers me whole,

leaving alone

my coward soul,

tough on the outside 

reckless inside

giving a chance is luck of time

But if you come closer,hearing nothing at all

my eyes will give you what you want

they know exactly how to betray

the feelings i lose on my own way

One last thing,and I am gone

your heart is brave as gold,

your soul strength, sharp as sword

that's what i m thinking as i m alone

don't waste your time in something doesn't worth

νυχτερινές σκέψεις

κι όλα ωραία και καλά. και ακόμα μια βραδιά κατάφερες και αντεπεξήλθες.  ΓΙΑΤΙ. δεν χρειάζεται.
H καλύτερη βραδιά είναι αυτή που δεν έχει χρειαστεί να "κοντρολάρεις" τίποτα.
Τίποτα.. η καλύτερη λέξη. Η καλύτερη σκέψη. Ότι καλύτερο..ΟΚ δεν είναι ότι καλύτερο. Αλλά μακάρι..Μακάρι να μην σκεφτόμουν τίποτα. Όλα θα ήταν τόσο ανώδυνα.Τ'όσο απλά.Μάλλον πιο ξεκάθαρα. Γιατί μ αρέσεις και συ μέσα ' όλα? Και γιατί εγώ είμαι έτσι.. Πάλι..!
απλά φύγε. τρέχα μακρυά.Τίποτα δε θα σου κάνει καλό. Και τίποτα δεν είναι αληθινό απ'αυτά που σου συμβαίνουν. Ειδικά τη νύχτα. να το θυμάσαι. Όπως ξεγελάς, αλήθεια,.. Σε ξεγελάνε.

manes

screams in my head
I can't face,I can't stand.
whisperings in my ears
late at night lying in my bed.
that's when I lose my sleep
and I lose my mind,
I lose myself,
on the other side

You're haunting me
What do you want?
don't be scared of me
cause I'm not

I thing I,'m used of such strange things that always happen to me.

it's too late,it's time too sleep
Oh..how I'd loved it..
I know you stare at me right now awake
you want me to play your game
so I challenge you, show me what you've got
what I'm doing  I dare of who?
always playing with fire

and now I'm playing with fire

I have to stop playing with fire..


but I still wish "Wind,Blow away!" cause that's how fire starts.


you're haunting me
what do you want?
now I'm scared of you
but you're not!

and now I really lose my mind..

trapped souls

standing all alone in a place of nowhere
lost, in this street of darkness
having no clue of what to do
it's just..me.and you.

Rain can wash my body now,
of guilts and fears.
My hands have still the look of red
trying to catch my helpful tears

You made me what I am right now
but how?
How could  have smashed these creepy walls
that you just build around me?
you can't imagine the level I reached
in the land of hate
and pain
you betrayed me
and the blame I take
is your fucking bloody face
lying
in my tearful lake

~Rain took away from me all the innocence I had that night.
 That night, there was only blood in my hands.
 there was only blood of yours,
 in my hands

Lying repercussion

I have no strength , no longer faith 

I hate those lies , my smile? is fake 

i 'm tired. I hear the "this is it"

the end is close, get used to it.

You ask if this is fine by me, 
you're mad, you yell, you're trying to leave
I hope one day you realize that the truth lies deep in my eyes
you never looked closer enough
you see, for you that's way too tough
The trust that i had put in you
became the guillotine that caught me in two
You lied to me , you never tell
you 'll never find , i rang the bell
It's in my hands now, can't you see
not paralyzed, though i feel free
You chose the noose , I chose to breath
my frozen pulse quickens underneath
I found the truth, I paid my sins
got rid off all my psycho queens..

I found strength , I found faith
I quit of being strange and fake
The only thing i keep inside
is something you must keep in mind

Your fucking lies that scratched my soul
will haunt you till the day you crawl.


 

blind

and then i looked into your eyes
you stared at me
you blinked them twice

i just can't  find a word to write
i feel so cold
no light..i'm blind

what if i breathe what if you try
don't pray for me
can't stand you cry
cry for my life my immoral mind
the filthy soul i keep inside

i told you once i have no strength
fighting the demons
blaming my self

i hate the fact i tell you lies
i'm tired i'm sick i'm paralyzed
pissed of these shits i have in mind
the tense,this glass filled up with wine 

-"my love",he said, "why do you have this pale-gray face?
 and what's that taste of cold?"
-i'm scared,I think i've lost my grace
-why you re so weak?you'll always be!Admit for once you're just okey!
- i know it's sick and that's not me,it's just that
 
 I'm dying my love..day after day