feelings()

this face i have of you in mind

remindes me you are one of the kind

these months with you gave me the light

that i was searching that awkward night

i drink a lot and think too much

started at November,and now it's March

i lied telling i didn't know

i wanted what you were giving 

 that's the only truth

But when you came,i was so lost

i tried to give, with heart still frost

I miss your eyes,our walks, your hugs

i screwed it all up, 

tears have now filled up my lungs

my mind conquers me whole,

leaving alone

my coward soul,

tough on the outside 

reckless inside

giving a chance is luck of time

But if you come closer,hearing nothing at all

my eyes will give you what you want

they know exactly how to betray

the feelings i lose on my own way

One last thing,and I am gone

your heart is brave as gold,

your soul strength, sharp as sword

that's what i m thinking as i m alone

don't waste your time in something doesn't worth

manes

screams in my head
I can't face,I can't stand.
whisperings in my ears
late at night lying in my bed.
that's when I lose my sleep
and I lose my mind,
I lose myself,
on the other side

You're haunting me
What do you want?
don't be scared of me
cause I'm not

I thing I,'m used of such strange things that always happen to me.

it's too late,it's time too sleep
Oh..how I'd loved it..
I know you stare at me right now awake
you want me to play your game
so I challenge you, show me what you've got
what I'm doing  I dare of who?
always playing with fire

and now I'm playing with fire

I have to stop playing with fire..


but I still wish "Wind,Blow away!" cause that's how fire starts.


you're haunting me
what do you want?
now I'm scared of you
but you're not!

and now I really lose my mind..

blind

and then i looked into your eyes
you stared at me
you blinked them twice

i just can't  find a word to write
i feel so cold
no light..i'm blind

what if i breathe what if you try
don't pray for me
can't stand you cry
cry for my life my immoral mind
the filthy soul i keep inside

i told you once i have no strength
fighting the demons
blaming my self

i hate the fact i tell you lies
i'm tired i'm sick i'm paralyzed
pissed of these shits i have in mind
the tense,this glass filled up with wine 

-"my love",he said, "why do you have this pale-gray face?
 and what's that taste of cold?"
-i'm scared,I think i've lost my grace
-why you re so weak?you'll always be!Admit for once you're just okey!
- i know it's sick and that's not me,it's just that
 
 I'm dying my love..day after day